Jason.Brooks.Stansel

You know someone who is perfectly disgusted with who they are. People are withering and dying all around us, and my heart is broken tonight because I think I am one of them. And think you may be, too. And if you are, this post is for you.

You and I, we MUST get back to the Truth. It is time we stopped fighting and struggling to break away from the comfort of the One who cares and wants only to show us that our worth lies beautifully and perfectly in Him. So much of our energy is spent running away from liberation, when there is a God who has taken great pains to ensure that we are able to access Life whenever, wherever, and however we need it. Tonight, when you are comfortable in your bed, please talk to Him. I think He misses us.

He misses me, I know.

Tell him the truth. The most honest, heartfelt, and enlightening prayer I have ever prayed was comprised of but two words:

I’m scared.

And it’s the truth. I’m scared I’ll never be comfortable in my own skin. I’m scared I won’t be able to protect my family. I’m scared I won’t ever even have a family. I’m scared I’m not saved. I’m scared to be honest with my family, that I’m not really talented as a musician, that I won’t get anywhere with music, that I’ll forever be the person who struggles.

I’m scared I will never know God.

But we must continue trying! I am going to cut this post shorter than I intended, because it has been far too long since I have sat down and had a conversation with the Godhead; gaining wisdom from the Holy Spirit, laughing with Jesus about the ridiculous things I do during the day, and weeping with the Father over my sin.

Thanking them all for the sacrifices they have made. I am going to go spend some time doing that.

Amidst all the pain, all the heartache, the insecurities, anger, bitternness, confusion, and fear, there is a God who wants so desperately to know us and to be honest with us. Let’s give Him that chance.

Jesus, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for what you went through and for the truth and life you bring us. Spirit, please empower me to demonstrate that gratuity with not just words but with action. Father, thank you so much for the immeasurable amount of mercy and grace you have bestowed on Your children.